Aaaaaand, we're back!

Hello everyone! I am sorry that it has been so long since I last posted. I could apologize and try to excuse myself by telling you that life has just been too busy for me to find the time to post, or perhaps that “nothing especially thought provoking” has given me pause for thought in recent weeks. But, as we all know, if I really truly wanted to post, I could certainly free up some time somewhere! (For example, by simply restricting my Facebook usage to “only” one or two hours a day I could likely gain enough time to write in my blog or maybe, oh, I dunno… earn a PhD?) And as far as not having anything especially thought provoking to write about… well, I can say with near-complete certainty that the only days that leave me with absolutely no food for thought are those where I flatly refuse to allow myself to consciously examine or analyze the events of the day. I think that we can all agree that there are some days that are just better off being left behind us, without too much emotional exploration being attached to it.

Therefore, in the case of my missing postings I am not going to try to make up any excuses (though, “the dog ate my computer” did cross my mind a number of times.) I will simply tell you that the reason I have not been posting regularly is because I needed to come to terms with the fact that there is no one “right” way to write. There is no single style that makes a piece interesting and there is no individual emotion that must be conveyed in each and every piece that I write. I needed to learn that it is OK to show people the many different shades of Beth, from the sun-shiny yellow to the murky gray… each of them is equally a part of what makes me who I am, and makes my tapestry so intricate and colorful.

One thing I will tell you however, is that my brief hiatus has allowed me to finally realize that this blog is about me; it’s about my thoughts, my feelings, my hopes and my fears. It is about my past, my present, my days and my nights. It is about my assessment of the events unfolding daily, around me; and gives the reader a sneak-peek of the world through “Beth-colored lenses”. In short, it is about me… and therefore I need not take direction or instruction on how best to proceed with my blogging. I will not be funny when I feel sad and I will not be angry when I feel joyful. I will be me. For better or for worse, this blog is mine and it’s my tapestry to document.

And so, welcome (again) to the mind of one “murkishy-yellow and shinyish-gray” young woman. It can get pretty chaotic in there… but I have to admit, it can be a whole lot of fun getting your hands messy in there too!!